Yesterday was our fourth anniversary. The mister's company threw us a big party. They even invited hundreds of people we didn't know. It was fairly fun and we're staying in a comfy/cozy hotel all weekend. Because, you know, we don't have a big trip coming up anytime soon.
A year ago I was feeling pretty hopeful. Two years ago I was really sad. Where am I this year?
If I were a certain fake newsman, perhaps The Word would be Resigned. I know we'll be parents. I just don't have any great hope that it will be anytime soon. I also feel like nothing has been easy so far so it's doubtful that the next steps/months/plans will be any easier.
Every anniversary we talk about how we got married to build our family. How the events of the last four years have brought us closer together and strengthened our relationship in ways we could have never predicted. The mister gives good card. It's always my favorite part of any present from him.
This year he said I was his beacon of hope. He said a lot of other very touching things but that's the phrase that stands out. I think we're both floundering a bit. I'm not feeling much hope so I worry that he must feel totally hopeless.
It's time to get ready for another party. I'm sitting here in a huge bed under a warm and comforting duvet. It's been rainy off and on today and I've really enjoyed just hanging out here in the hotel room. It feels like its the two of us against the world and the obstacles we've faced in the last four years have taken their toll.
I'm tempted to just order room service and call it a night but I want to show off my new purple evening dress that I found on the clearance rack yesterday. I'm pairing it with a gold purse (and this color combination is PERFECT since it's my current company's party) and looking forward to more martinis, oysters on the half shell, and crooning from a reality show reject. And if I'm lucky at all, I'll squeeze in some dancing with the love of my life.
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congratulations on 4 years! may you both enjoy another 40.
Posted by: Jen | Saturday, 09 December 2006 at 19:46
Four years...how time flies no? Cograts and I hope you have a wonderful time with that dance :) Thinking of you.....
Posted by: Alex/Infertile Gourmet | Saturday, 09 December 2006 at 20:55
It's what? Don't leave us hanging. ;)
Happy Anniversary to you and the Mister. While I wish we could have all met under different, happier circumstances, we are so grateful to the both of you for your friendship.
A beacon of hope? You are not kidding about the good card. *melt*
Posted by: Bebe | Saturday, 09 December 2006 at 21:51
Love the idea of the purple/gold combo - I was looking at some tres chic gold evening bags last night but couldn't really justify buying one.
Posted by: thalia | Sunday, 10 December 2006 at 05:05
Enjoy!!!
Posted by: Pamplemousse | Sunday, 10 December 2006 at 06:39
It's fun when a company throws a big party just for your anniversary, isn't it? Hope you had a good time. Pictures of the dress are forthcoming, no?
Posted by: Donna | Sunday, 10 December 2006 at 12:50
Happy Anniversary. Enjoy the oysters.
Posted by: Sparkle | Sunday, 10 December 2006 at 14:26
Happy Anniversary. Millie!!!
I hope that the next year brings you much to celebrate.
Lotsa love,
Roni
Posted by: Roni | Sunday, 10 December 2006 at 14:35
Happy Anniversary. I hope you enjoy the oysters and your upcoming trip. I really hope 2007 brings renewed inspiration, hope and success.
Posted by: Krista | Sunday, 10 December 2006 at 15:36
Happy Anniversary! Hope you had a super time at the party! Would love to see photos.
Posted by: Heather | Monday, 11 December 2006 at 07:00
Happy Anniversary to you and the mister. I hope that the new year brings you great joy. The only good thing IF ever brought me was closer to T.
Posted by: Bonnie | Monday, 11 December 2006 at 07:50
Happy Anniversary!!!
Posted by: KIMMER | Monday, 11 December 2006 at 07:59
Happy anniversary!
Posted by: chris | Monday, 11 December 2006 at 09:13
Millie - HAPPY Anniversary. You and your mister are the Greatest! Wishing you the best on your special day and for your upcoming trip.
Love the Good Card, you got yourself a catch and so does he!
Looking forward to the New Year & New Hope for us all.
Posted by: Christina | Monday, 11 December 2006 at 11:07
happy anniversary to you and the mister!
Posted by: daisy mae | Monday, 11 December 2006 at 16:28
Happy anniversary :) we just celebrated our 4th as well, and like you we are both waiting knowing that becoming parents will happen, just not how or when.
I think we need a pic of you in the dress :)
Posted by: Chrissy | Monday, 11 December 2006 at 18:41
Happy Anniversary!! Hope you had a fantastic day/evening!!
I very much hope that 2007 is better for ALL of us. 7 is a lucky number, right?!
I certainly hope so!
All the best,
xx
Nilla
Posted by: 'Nilla @ Vanilla Dreams | Tuesday, 12 December 2006 at 00:12
happy happy anniversary!
Posted by: rosie | Wednesday, 13 December 2006 at 06:34