reckoning...not just another rem song

So I thought I might as well face the scales of justice...or just the scales. It wasn't a pretty sight. I've decided to do something about it. I'm hoping that writing about it here will make me even more accountable. Guess we'll see if it works, right?

One of the fun side effects of infertility (and frankly, there are sooooo many fun ones to choose from, aren't there?) is the inevitable weight gain.

Now perhaps the weight gain isn't truly inevitable but it sure does feel that way. There sure are a lot of helpful players in the game. Here's my roster:

• The Drugs are a star player.
• Depression suits up quickly as well and takes no prisoners.
• The Inability to get one's lazy ass off the couch and away from the blogosphere and the best support a gal could hope for is a key contributor.
• Don't discount the Undiagnosed Hypothyroidism because she's been playing longer than anyone knew.
• Oh and who can forget our secret weapon: Pastry School. That's right, folks, the decision to go to pastry school because it's one of the only things that can get you out of bed, much less the depths of despair, does not exactly do wonders for the waistline. Ok, this one probably only applies to me but it *is* my blog.

Looks like we have a whole basketball team.

So here I am a few years later and many pounds heavier. I'll just cut to the chase. I started a diet a few weeks ago. I'm not even going to lie and call it a 'lifestyle plan' or anything of the sort. I shelled out some bucks because I feel like the one-on-one attention I'm getting is worth it to me.

I'm not sure why I waited so long. I'm more than willing to pay acupuncturists, therapists, all kinds of people but thought I could do this on my own. Obviously I can't. If it was just a matter of knowing what you should do and doing that then we'd all be size 2, right? There's must be something more to it, at least for me.

So this diet is a no sugar, high protein, lower carb (not no carb just healthier ones) deal. Like Wessel I've found this approach has worked well for me in the past.

I've done well so far. I've got no interest in sugar or bread at this point. I'm focused on South Africa and it's easy to 'just say No.' Maybe Nancy Reagan was right? KIDDING. I don't think she was right about anything (except some of those lovely sets of china she spent so much of our money on).

Today is a check-in day for me. So far I'm down 10-12 pounds. I'll find out a real number in a bit. That's a great start. I'm trying to just do what I can until January. It's only 8 weeks away. I can do it for that long.*

I'm also hoping to add some real exercise back in soon. I haven't been back to the gym since just before that horrible cycle in May. I'm still paying for it so I should just bite the bullet and go, right? Seems to be easier said than done. Once I start going I know I'll like it but that first time back seems to be the killer.

 

*Then with any luck at all morning sickness will set in shortly after my trip though with my luck I'll just be hungry all the time and able to eat anything.

 

Comments

[mm]

Good for you!! I've been eating like a pig lately but have managed to go to the gym twice this week. Both sessions were torture.... I could feel my butt jiggling with every step I took on the treadmill and could barely walk after I left the weight room. I feel a little more sane now that I've started exercising again, but I know my body won't change until I get back on healthy eating wagon. But you've inspired me. 10-12 pounds!? That's incredible!!

[susie]

Hey, good for you. That's the kind of diet that works for me as well, that high-protein, no sugar, good carb diet. Great job so far, 10-12 pounds is nothing to sneeze at!

[T]

Good job - good luck! 12 pounds is excellent!

No sugar is the only thing that worked for me too.

[Emily]

Woohoo Millie that's great! 10-12 pounds....excellent.

I've started South Beach and so far so good. As much as me loves my sugar, I do feel better when I'm not eating any.

Sensational effort. 10-12 pounds is brilliant.

[Sue]

Yup...depression and lazy ass on the couch and in front of the computer accounts for my weight gain. I've lost about 7, but can't seem to lose the next 7. I always have good intentions, but at the end of the day, I'm just done. Holding myself together all day takes up a lot energy.

Congrats on the motivation and weight loss. You're doing great!

[wessel]

Wow, you have lost 10 lbs?? That's wonderful! (I'm jealous.) I think maybe I lost 2 since last week, which cancels out the one I gained over the holiday, plus one extra pound. Well, upward and onward. It's hard to give up bread and sugar, and I'm finding it requires lots of advance planning.

Can you say more about the one-on-one plan you are doing? Do you meet with a counselor each week? Please say more. I was thinking about going to a hypnotist, believe it or not! I just have so little discipline. I'd be interested in your view of losing weight with the help of others.

[chris]

Hey, congrats. Love the basketball team, by the way. It's so true. So, are you ever going to tell us about your pastry school adventures? You know we're all obsessed with food.

[Pamplemousse]

mmmm...pastry! I have been hitting the sugar like a demon and it is really, really bad for me as a diabetic. 12 lbs is fab!!

[daisy mae]

hey millie. good job on the weight loss. better to loose the ttc weight before you actually become preggo. since after baby, you will only have to loose the preggo weight. unlike i, who had to loose the preggo weight (done) ttc weight(2 lbs to go), and the wedded bliss weight (6 lbs to go). i keep telling myself that if i had lost the ttc and wb weight before baby, then i'd be a size 8 now.

i'm trying to read backwards to catch up with you over the past couple months. nap times just do not last long enough in this house.

sending hugs and kisses your way!

(oh - and i can relate to pastry school. when i took cake decorating last february - well, i just lumped that weight into the preggo weight category!)

[thalia]

millie you rock for that weight loss already. Imagine how much more you'll be able to knock off if you can make it to the gym. For me when I lost all the weight last year it was adding more exercise sessions a week that made the difference. Well done so far and good luck with the rest.