I feel like I've been gone for such a long time. I was out of town over the weekend and have been without internet for many days. Oh, the horror! I've got so many blogs to catch up on. I have been thinking of all of you.
Last night was the first night for stims. It was also my first experience with the oh-so-chic pen. Of course, with the humongous amount of drugs I'm on it still takes 3 shots (!!) but it was pretty easy once I got the hang of it.
So were are we? Hmmm. Antagon? Check. That's going great. Dexamethasone? Well, that's going. Something is making me both nauseous and ravenous all at the same time. Could it be our friend the steroids? Probably.
Last week I went to the grocery store when I was feeling a tad sick. Usually, I have no problems going hungry but if I go when I'm thirsty all I buy are drinks. Well, this time I bought a cart full of crackers, yogurt and diet ginger ale. That's all that sounded good. I had no idea they make so many kinds of wheat thins these days. I thought I'd try 4 different kinds. My husband has never seen me eat a single wheat thin in the 10 years we've been together. He was quite surprised to say the least.
Back to the drug list. Estrogen shots? Yup. Took care of both of those. Now, I love my husband dearly but he is the biggest wuss ever when it comes to giving me shots. I hope he gets better with practice. He's sooooo very concerned about hurting me he takes for-evah. Like my leg is falling asleep forever. Like his heavy breathing and sighing until he gets the needle in makes me crazy. The first shot took 30 minutes. I kid you not. I had to take a little timeout and tell him to just freaking stick the needle into my hip and be a man about it.
He did. Then he nearly fainted. It's kind of cute because he's incredibly worried about hurting me but man...it's gonna hurt, right? I mean it's a SHOT! HEEEEEELLLLLOOO. Just do it. His whole "I'm not feeling well and think I need to lie down" after is pretty annoying too. I mean I'm the one with the needle in me. What's the big deal?
Well, he's probably got at least a week and maybe two until he needs to give me another shot. Maybe he'll get better. Maybe I'll figure out some way to do them myself.
Back to the other drugs. Hmmm. 10 amps is a LOT. I'm trying to picture the little eggies letting all the drugs in and just having a big ol' party. I'm already feeling bloated and hormonal and way too emotional. I added in estrogen suppositories night before last and I guess they just add to the overall fun.
I normally cry at the drop of a hat. I'm famous in my family for crying at long distance commercials. Now, I'm crying just thinking about long distance commercials. Remember the one where the girl was away at college? And the Excedrin commercial with the voice over by Linda Hunt? "Daddy has a headache." Those always got me.
These days it's tv shows that make me cry. Even the old tried and true Law and Order has me bawling right now. Don't even get me started on Grey's Anatomy or my guilty pleasures (Gilroy Girls and Kevin Hill). Did y'all know that one of the couples on the Amazing Race is doing it to pay for ivf? I love them! She had to shave her head for a challenge and he was soooo sweet. She looked awesome, btw, totally kick-ass gorgeous.
Time to go on a tissue run.
Junkie? No just infertile!
Munchies? I will bring the food!!
Posted by: alex | Wednesday, 04 May 2005 at 08:58
Hormones make you buy the weirdest things. And your husband sure takes his time when giving the shots... Can't you just give them yourself?
Posted by: ankaisa | Wednesday, 04 May 2005 at 12:45
I'm surprised that crying isn't a listed side effect of these medications and that Freedom Drug doesn't sell kleenex. I haven't cried at Law n' Order, yet, but I have let the tears fly with: 1) Shallow Hal, 2) The Nike commercial with Lance Armstrong, 3) Remembering the Nike commercial with Lance Armstrong, and yes, the Amazing Race, too.
Posted by: Suz | Wednesday, 04 May 2005 at 13:11
I cry every time I see Jerry Orbach now in an episode and I wail "He's dead. Such a shame".
Posted by: Pamplemousse | Wednesday, 04 May 2005 at 13:34
Oh hormone sobs, I remember them well. Mine would last 20 seconds - I'd start suddenly and stop suddenly too. I did the TV sobs, the I love you sobs, the sob sobs.
Your story about your DH gave me a good laugh (which I sorely needed). It really is hard to believe that men run the world, isn't it?
So many shots - you're a pincushion princess!
Posted by: InSpring | Wednesday, 04 May 2005 at 14:30
Aww, just do what I do: give yourself your own shots! You should see me in the mirror giving myself my shot in my hip/butt with that overly long intramuscular needle. (laugh)
Posted by: Liana | Thursday, 05 May 2005 at 13:56