Well, the title is truly a stretch for me. I don't actually feel pretty but I'm working my way back to feeling human and even a little bit girly. I've been feeling horribly icky and unattractive for the longest time.
Yesterday I got a manicure AND a pedicure. Ooooooh so very nice. My toes are all purpley and sparkly and make me giggle just to look at them. My fingers look all grown up with my pinky-french tipped nails. (Ok. I admit they are really stubs at this point and not true nails but baby steps, people, babysteps).
Today I went CRAZY and got my brows and lips waxed. I even let a sweet blonde thing do a mini-makeover on me (something about Spring Fling or like that I don't know) and bought all the stuff she used. I can do it very fast so it might actually get used. She put something on me that she called "SuperModel in a Bottle" and if it were that easy it would be worth way more than the $25 or so that it cost.
She was trying to make small talk and asked me if I was a mom (it was 11 on a Thursday and most people don't have time to hang out at the cosmetics store then). I must have had a stricken look on my face as I answered no (note to self: learn to control facial tics so that I don't scare people off...see Emily's post on turret's as a reference) and to my credit just said something about having dogs.
The thing I really need to do is get a hair cut and color. That's taking more energy to research and book than I have at this point. I'm DESPERATE for a c&c though, it's been 5 months since my last one. The grey is officially taking over. I've taken to only wearing my hair up or in a ponytail, neither of which look good on me.
I think I'll go put some more gold sparkly stuff on my lips and just a touch of gloss. Maybe even call a salon or two. Might get all the way back to feeling like a woman sometime soon.
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